After bleeding heavily for 4 days, an ultrasound showed nothing. The doctor came in and said "There is no baby but you were pregnant at one time because your blood has hcg in it."
How am I suppose to feel?
I go on with my life. We celebrate a birthday, go on a 3 mile hike, vacation, return home, clean, fold laundry, prepare for another year of school.
I am suppose to be growing a life inside me.
Heck I'm suppose to be due this October too.
I cry for no reason but that is not true.
I cry because of the life lost. The life I will never grow. The life that will never live.
I cry for the unknown. The cause of this all.
I cry because I feel abandoned.
I try to go on but only because I have to go on...
